Tuesday, June 05, 2001

baby take a bow: Seems like time is running out for me. Anyday now the people for the car are going to reposess the car. I am gonna cry because I love my car. It is the first car I have ever had that was only mine. I am the only person really who has driven it. I got the thing when it was still wrapped up in plastic. it had 2 miles on it. It kills me thinking about it. I just don't know what to do anymore. I hav e played all my cards and have come up drastically short. My frucking unemployment didnt even come in. It is so damn upsetting. what am i supposed to do about that. I did everything they told me to do now all I can do is wait till they get their act together and pay me. in the meantime everything i own slips out of my hands.

Well yesterday was a long day and somewhat of a good day. I spent 5 hours interviewing for a job with Talent tree. They have decided that according to my advanced access, word,excel, and powerpoint skills, my resume and interview that I should be an admin. So sometime this week I interview for the Director of a Call Center. I hope I get it. I know I can do the job. I mean it is a lot of responsibility to be the captian of the ship but it is what I enjoy doing. The Office test where annoying as hell. They where on a computer that still had Dos on it. It took forever to go through each question and it didnt recognize half the shortcuts that I normally use. I will never work for a company that has that antiquated systems. Unless they give me full rights to upgrade the system to something usable.

Even though it does seem that I have been whining alot latley, I am feeling alot better in general. I know things are tough right now. But I know that I can accomplish everything I need to accomplish eventually. I am moving forward toward my dreams. Now if I can find funding for 5,000 to 10,000 I could make a go of it. It is infuriating, not to be able to get a loan when you know if you just had that loan everthing will be ok. Sometimes banks are so stupid. Is there anything that I can do? Does anybody out there know someone who has a that kinda money, and is willing to take a chance on me?

I know you guys are probably sick of seeing lyrics but music is what makes me tick. so here is the song I identify the most with right now. travis tritt Its a great day

Love, Sulis feeling goodabout the future despite all that is happening in the present


I got rice cooking in the microwave

Got a three day beard I don't plan to shave

And it's a goofy thing but I just gotta say

Hey I'm doing alright



Yeah I think I'll make me some homemade soup

Feelin pretty good and that's the truth

It's neither drink nor drug induced

No I'm just doin alright



Chorus:

And it's a great day to be alive

I know the sun's still shinin when I close my eyes

There's some hard times in the neigborhood

But why can't every day be just this good?



It's been fifteen years since I left home

Said good luck to every seed I'd sown

Give it my best and then I left it alone

Oh...I hope their doin alright



Now I look in the mirror and what do I see?

A lone wolf there starin back at me

Long in the tooth but harmless as can be

Lord I guess he's doin alright



Chorus



Sometimes it's lonely

Sometimes it's only me

And the shadows that fill this room

Sometimes I'm fallin

Desperately callin

Howlin at the moon...

Ahwoo!

Ahwoo!



Well I might go get me a new tattoo

Or take my old Harley for a three day cruise

Might even grow me a Fu Man Chu...

Oh Aww!



Chorus (2 x's)