Tuesday, November 07, 2000

Mending broken hearts and broken carsWell I tried to blog yesterday but i screwed it up because I am not used to using Tal's keyboard. Kat is using my monitor so I am unable to access it from my computer. Besides my keyboard is broken. Anyways, lets keep everyone up to date on what has been happening. I have been asleep for the last 24 hours GOD I LOVE NYQUIL. Remind me to write them a nice note. As soon as I got up it was off to the heart hospital. We had to take mom into have heart surgery. She had this mean looking metal contraption put up her aorta so she doesnt die from her anurism bursting. So most of the day was spent talking to dad and tal and wishing I was anywhere but in the heart hospital. I really hate these places. Makes me think of sick people and I really do not want to think of sick people. specially when I can do nothing about it.


I came home in time for the kids to get home from school but I will have to go back and get dad later tonight because he is really unable to drive. He is gonna spend the night and I will take him back in the morning. I finally had a good chat with him and told him how much it scared me that he is looking so frail. He told me that he understood it scared him too. I feel like crying everytime I look at that strong beautiful man looking so frail and so unable to care for himself. How can life be soo fucking unfair. Its not right that people like him have to suffer and horrid mean people spend their entire life healthy as an ox.


I am hopeing that pomas lack of contact means that she did get her car issue taken care of and she is in school right now. I can't tell you how proud I am of her lately. She seems to be really trying to get things taken care of and that is the really important thing.


well I really need to go i have a ton of things i need to do and not a whole lot of time to do it in. thanks to everyone who has been so suportive while i have been a wicked little bitch. Trust me it is almost over. I am getting there woohooo i am almost to a point where i can sit back and be happy at where i am. keep the good luck heading my way please I can use it. Love ya all kisses and sweet dreams

sulis