whew well my sister did not get married on Friday. SHe is still getting married but hey its a start. Spent some time talking to my sis Nina and her interesting roommate. Nice voice and she says he looks like a tall eminem. I am glad she is doing soo well. I hope she knows how proud of her I am. And you know mom is wrong she is not her legacy she is mine.
I am havent been sleeping real well. Too much on my mind I guess. I am trying really hard not to think about things but its hard.
btw i havent said this before but BabyD I am very very proud of you. Congratulations on your promotion. I hope that this job is everything that you where looking for. I miss seeing you and talking to you, but I know you are off living your dream and that is all that really matter RIGHT! Be safe please and hey Can I drive the Mustang while your out of town. giggles just kidding.
the baby rats are getting huge and i finally named the three self the two boys (the only boys out of 12) are hunter and dallas and the girl is abagail. Pictures comming soon. i hope to get a movie of the girls cage especially of aramis ridding around on the wheel while her mother run on it.
spending alot of time at work trying to make lots of money and trying to do somehting with my insomnia. It sucks i tell you. I have had only a few hours sleep this week
AND DAMMIT NONONONONONONONO I will not do anyones tarot reading! sorry I am just not ready to deal with that right now. Maybe ina month when i have settled down a bit.
talk to yall soon. kisses and sweet dreams
I'm back! I thought I would refrain from speaking my piece till I can talk with out saying something that i am going to regret saying. So Now that I think I have my mouth under control let me tell you about my week.
I found that my sister is getting married tommorrow in Monterey. Its a scarey thought my little little sister getting married. I hope she is doing the right thing. Don't do it sis unless you are really ready. I mean sweetheart don't do it for anyone but yourself and make sure you know that it is the right thing for you. I don't want to see you get hurt. You are sooooo young hun. Your not even 20 yet. Did I also mention that she is in the military. Shit she hasnt even been on her own yet. Sweetie don't make the same mistake I did. Learn who you are before you become a us.
And my little brother denny boy is getting married but he at least is waiting till march. I hope that the girl is nice although my sister and I take a little offense to the fact that neither of us have met the woman yet. Time for you to come south and visit. Your a big boy and don't have listen to mommy anymore.
Mom, I love you but get over it. its been 10 years. your grandchildren would love to visit with you. The time has come for the past to be the past. You are missing out on some special times. grandma nina sorry I haven't written I Just dont know what to say. To many things I need and want to say but the words are just not there. I know that its hard to deal with but until i know how to say what i need to say to you I cant talk to you about anything else.
Tal I am sorry if you miss me. I dont know what to say, I miss me too. Right now all I can focus on is serviving getting through school, making enough money to survive. I know you feel lost in the shuffle but I really don't know how to change that. RIght now if I interact with you too much I will say things to you that you really don't want to hear. My Soul is raw right now and my feeling right on the surface. Think about where you are going and where you really want to go. The time to really talk is comming soon BE READY! You won't get another chance like this to really TALK to me. Choose your words well because in the end only you have the power to change your life.
SO how do you consolidate 10 years worth of junk. I mean my life is sooo cluttered right now. How the hell am I ever gonna clean it up. I have to you know. I don't have a choice anymore. I know that now. I can't keep on floating hopeing that things will change. I have to make them change. All the way around. And thanks to all my friends who have put up with the transition. I know I am driving you nuts. Its almost over I finally feel like I am ready to clean up my act. Are you gonna be there to catch me? To help me back up when I fall? No matter the decision is made the time has come and like it our not I have to grow up and take some responsiblity for my actions for my mistakes and for my inaction. Wish me luck!
love ya all kisses and NO LEXA I AM NOT MAD AT YOU JUST BUSY HEALING MY CAT! giggles
and laughing_j35t3r hope you liked the stories. ANd thanks for keeping me awake. Hang in there it will get better. I know there is a kitty just for you out there who will love to give you all the squishy boob hugs and let you pet her fur anytime you want. Ian skinny guys are cool too. and to the lone man in the girls bay HAppy birthday again. Hope to see you write something for this place soon. Would love to see your thoughts on the subject.kisses
ok guys well I need to try to sleep I didnt get much yesterday. Insomnia sucks. Anyone know how to shut your brain off when its going a million miles a minutes. I could use some help.laters
oh yeah todays song is Joe treat her like a lady. So guys do you treat your girls like your queen? If not Why not?
