soulhunte.com: core dump
Soulhuntre said: well he says alot of stuff most of it WAY WAY WAY over my head but this one I happen to sorta agree on. Lately I have been dealing with a lot of people who really enjoy being victims. Who want me to feel sorry for them for things that have happened to them in their lives. Who want me to exscuse their behavior because they where traumatized by things that happened in the past. Well guess what guys. Everyone has scars, everyone has been fucked up in some way shape or form. Live with it or as Kimi says DEAL! Move on, SO someone hurt you, get over it and make your life better. SO your father never loved you, sooooo what your an adult now get over it and make sure you dont make the same damn mistake with your kids. SO your ex broke your heart deal and move on every other person you meet is not your ex and is not gonna hurt you (ok is probably gonna hurt you but in a way all that persons own)
personally I have hated some of things I have DONE to MYSELF over the years. I have caused so much trauma to myself by choosing to be traumatized by things i Should have just delt with. I love all the pain and embarrassment and every other uncomfortable thing that has happened in my life becuase I took those things and tried to learn from them. I want to dance not stand along the wall. So think about this today. Are you allowing yourself to be a VICTIM of life or are you living Life? ARE YOU STANDING OUTSIDE THE FIRE?
ps hey cutie good luck with cracker call girl I want to hear all about it. LBIMB hun you really need to rethink things when you have a beautiful girl begging you to take her and you dont follow through. laughing_j357er your a doll hope you have fun at the party tonight dont forget to drink some frangelico for me, I will be at work slaving away. DC life is full of choice we just have to learn to stand up and face them OH yeah its not a bad thing to have feelings for someone who is less then perfect.(Only you can make the fiary tale come true because ultimatly you are the one writting the story)Photoman thanks for all the help you brat. I cant wait to see what you do with that leather. I really could use a set of nice cuffs and a new collar. Miss talking to you and tell pixie i miss her little texas butt. (HEHEHEHE Damn texans they are like cockroaches taking over the world)
well off to sleep for now kisses and love
Ever had one of those days when you know something is terribly wrong and you just have no idea what it is. I feel that way right now. I want to scream. cry, curl up in a ball and die. And the fucked thing about it is I don't know why. All I do know is that I really really hate feeling this way
IT started this morning or should I say last night. On the way home from moms house I just had one of those wierd feelings that make you feel like you are about to get into a really big accident one of those ones that you dont wake up from at least not for a few days. I had a hard time going to sleep so I did what any red blooded american girl would do I tried to make myself sleep. I will leave it up to your imagination as to how I did that. Anyways I picked kat up at the airport this morning and we had a good talk. But all through the time I still couldnt shake this fucked up feeling. Kat sat their patiently as always listening to me bitch about a feeling I cant really describe over something I have no idea what. I mean really really things are not bad right now. Things are pretty much going ok. Things could be better but that is normal things can always be better. But the thing is why cant i shake this feeling.
I am hoping that poma is working on straightening out. I have so much hope for her. She is a great woman if she would just realize this. Its funny she is soo me when I was here age. Its like going through that inbetween time all over again being around her. I guess i have alterior motives for helping her. I really do care about her but Ithink it is also in a way a way of saving myself. By fixing what is wrong with her I will have fixed what is wrong with my life. Pretty stupid huh oh well fuck it It is how i feel so tooo damn bad.
ok well this weeks focus is going to be on getting loose ends cleared up so I dont feel like I am all unstrung. Maybe this will help. oh and btw all of you who have sent responses to my last qustion you know who you are. But come on guys I have recieved everything from the seriously sweet and adorable to the not in your wildest dreams will that ever happen reponses. None of which was a serious response to the very serious question i placed in front of you. SO Please please look at the question again and respond apropriately. I am definetly waiting for your response.
love and kisses and all that.sulis
