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hmmm it has been brought to my attention that yesterdays log was a little heavy. I'm sorry it just had to be said. I feel much better for saying it. I email a friend who always seems to know what should be and filled him in on everything that was going on in my head. I know he prolly thinks I am insane and I don't blame him for that but he gave me some ideas on what I should do and what I shouldn't do. Always such the voice of reason. Had a nice chat with lexa she gave me some ideas too. Everyone and I mean everyone is being so nice and understanding about my recent mood swings. well i have to jet to work. laters

posted by digitalsulis @ 8/09/2000 10:21:00 PM

Ok i haven't blogged in a few days haven't really known what to say. Been in a spot where I am questioning who I am. My 30th Birthday comming up has got me examining my life and what I am doing in it. All I know right now is its time to clean it up. Life has gotten to messy and it drives me insane. I need to consolidate my life. I need to push away some things and ideas I have clung to for years desperatly trying to make things seem like I was alive. For those of you who know me now. I am sure you know that who I am now is no where near the person I was when I was younger. So for those of you who are feeling like I am avoiding you and or feeling like I am pushing yoiu away from me (I'm not gonna lie I am pushing you away and avoiding you but It wont be forever)It wont be long and I will explain everything to everyone. I just needed some time alone to figure out myself. To find who Sulis really is. I forgot who she was over the years. I needed to figure out what my goals where and who I want in my life and who I dont want in my life. I am comming close to getting everything straight in my life and getting ready to impliment those changes. Some of you may not like it but you wil get over it. You will find that when sulis is happy then the people around her will be happier because I love to make my friends and family happy.

Take stock Life is about to change and change hard but it will be for the best. I love you all and I feel for anyone i hurt in this process ahead of time.

kisses.

posted by digitalsulis @ 8/08/2000 10:26:00 PM